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I want to go out tomorrow, I really do. I may go out, and get away from this depressing house, because we all know how much I hate being alone.

There's two ways I can be alone.

• Without company, psychically alone
• Emotionally solitary.

The latter is what I feel most of the time. Muth knows how dangerous feeling like this is for me. I wish everyone else did too.

I hate leaving the house, but i hate staying home. It's depressing here. It's lonely.
I could never live alone, ever.

The fourth thing I want out of life, is to retire, and die in Scotland. Unfortunately, this won't be achieved if I'm living in Scotland alone.