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The living dead.

There are things going on in my head which I can't even trust Muth with, so without naming names, I'm telling you, the anonymous hordes of the internet.

I'm currently a wreck. Since Sunday night, I've been in somewhat of a bad mood. Hearing certain things which gives me certain ideas, and then those ideas being amplified by certain things said. It's comidial in a way how I've brought about my own downfall in the past, entierly by own hand. Now it seems as though other people may be pushing this downfall further.

Things said, supporting and contradicting things previously said. This is what makes me angry.
Also, certain people agrivate me, and I still act as though they were friends. They probably know how much they anger me, and how I see them, but fuck them.

If I had it my way, I wouldn't even be leaving my room anymore, but curiosity drives me to find out what a certain something means: "Nothing's right, everything's wrong." I know somethings wrong, and it's natural for me to need to know what's wrong, especially seeing as it concerns someone close to me.
//sigh

Time to watch more HEROES with Sam, then go home and watch some Japanese Cult Cinema. Can anyone say "Suicide Club"? :D!





I hope the Hordes know that this blog was a one-off.
>__________>

deceased

My blog is deceased, and I am giving it up.
I am sick of blogging, and I rarely do it at all anymore.

If you want to know how I feel, just ask.
I'll update my conversations, and moods, more often than any blog.


Goodbye Blogspot, you have been good to me.

Posty post post

Oh shit, it's been quite some time since I've posted a blog. I'm thinking I should just stop blogging, but I won't.

The last blog, which was a while back was about my angst, and this one will be about the opposite. Here goes:

I'm happiest when watching anime, or with friends, or eating. Even sad anime (like Voices From A Distant Star) makes me happy, which pretty much just shows how much I do enjoy anime. Recently, I've spent the vast majority of my time watching anime. I borrowed a shit load from Sam, and I've watched the most of it. Currently I'm watching Bleach, and for someone who wasn't originally a fan of Bleach, (or Gundam, but I ended up watching all 49 episodes of Gundam Wing, and enjoying them), Bleach has really grown on me and I enjoy it quite a bit. I'm watching the third box currently, and soon Sam will have the forth box, and we will watch it all in one day.

Hoopla.

Friends have been a big part of my life lately. Most days I see at least one friend, weather it be at school, or otherwise. Just before I posted the angsty blog, I attended a picnic to commemorate the anniversary of Kieran's birth. It was nice, sitting around with friends, climbing a tree, and making new friends. Afterwards, we went to Gaffney's house for a gathering, and this was nice and fun. We intended to go and visit our good friend, Julia Farr, but then we walked around her house instead and did not go and see her. SHAME.

The weekend following, was the debut/test game of Adelaide Assassins. Simply, you dress in black, get a spoon and projectile (water-gun/nerf-gun), take a photo of ones self, and eliminate your target, in a public location (we played the East half of Rundle Mall). It's not as easy as it sounds, I didn't even make a single kill.

The weekend just gone, began with helping Chris with his geography assignment. We surveyed some kind people about how much they love using the o-bahn.It was okay. I then went to Joe's house with Matt and Kieran, and we played Wii, and put a sofa in the middle of the street.

FRIENDS ARE IMPORTANT GUYS

I'm really looking forward to coffee and cake with Steph tomorrow during our frees.


Oh, I got my phone back, but seeing as it's a brand new handset, I am in desperate need of numbers. Text me with your name, and then converse with me and what not.
If you're an anonymous follower, this is even better! I do enjoy making friends.
Oh, if you're a reader and I don't talk to you, text me also. I will be nice and converse too.
0433372544

Yeah, pasta.

I've thought about a lot of things today, and none of them have been all too pleasant. I realized how easy some things can irritate me, how certain people make me feel, and that I hate things, really easily. I miss things I've never had, and I want things I've thrown away. It seems as though my life is one massive mistake, a never ending contradiction.

This blog will be about my angst (insert LiveJournal joke).

I feel alone most of the time (when I'm not, I'm in the presence of a few particular people), and as weird as it sounds, I feel as though most of my issues would seem some what irrelevant if I had a girlfriend. Lately I've been longing for that feeling of "being with" someone. I don't really know why, I guess I just want that connection. I know my track record with dating is awfully pitiful, and by no means am I proud of it, but, yeah. I don't know.

Most of you would know that I grew up resenting my father, and as a result I've never had a real father figure. I walk home from town some times, and if I catch a different bus from town, I walk through a park. Both ways, I often see fathers with their son's, and I get sad. Because I've never had a father figure, I don't know what to expect, but I know what I'd like. That's why I'm going to be the fucking greatest dad ever.

All in good time.

Sometimes I think it would be good if everything started all over again. In the anime, The Big O, all the citizen's of Paradigm City (a fictional city, main setting for the show) lost all their memories forty years before the beginning of the series. I wish something like that would happen in real life. Everyone would forget everything they ever knew, all their relationships, and everything. Sure, we'd be able to get some kind of lingering feeling from things like Facebook, and photos, but we'd just start fresh. Initially we'd find comfort in each other due to the loss of everything, and grudges we'd have now would be gone. Sure, we'd be alone, but we'd come together quite quickly.

I'm going to bed now, or soon, and watching 5 Centimeters Per Second. It's sad, and that's what I want right now.

Rage

My own demons are those fueled by anger. This is why I am not at school, and probably won't be for the rest of the week. Whoever has seen me at my peak knows about what I become. Some people (or if you read the earlier blogs) will know about Demi-Justin. Demi-Justin and Omni-Justin (the name for the calm Justin) have merged into one being now, which is incredibly unfortunate.

I want to be around you, when you're at your worst. When your anger is uncontrollable, that's, when I want to be around you most.

I don't understand, please elaborate.

This was a Formspring Comment I replied to about twenty minutes ago. I don't understand why someone would want to be around such a monster, or around me at all.

Some friends and I decided that we'd beat our fears this year, and sure, I can beat my fear of heights, but the fear of myself won't be beaten all too easily.